the dummy is me. I still did not believe my dx, I thought my work stress was just that stress....a year and a half of meds and no change so that was not really bp because nothing changed..then using cbt and mindfulness I drove the stress away till it was completely gone and all was good,.. never mind a change from depakote to lamictal during that time..I never even considered the stress as a bp symptom nor the fear and paranoia i had.. guess what, the racing thoughts the anxiety the irratibility has come back with a vengence and I am on the heaviest dose I have ever been on.. I believe I just cycled in and out and completely fooled myself,, does this ring a bell with anyone..a true believer now!