<font color="blue">Louise - thanks for sharing your story! I think there are quite a few mental health professionals who suffer from mental illness, but few have the courage to admit it. I'm glad to hear that you're able to fulfill your dreams!

Also, depending on the severity, I don't think BP would prevent anyone from being an outstanding therapist, but as you mentioned, the stigma is astounding. I freely admit that I've been depressed as there is little stigma. Besides, most people view depression as something you recover from (60-70% of the time). On the other hand, people see bipolars as unpredictable - a liability. I don't think that's necessarily true though.</font>

<font color="green">
Davey - the decision to seek out therapy is very complex for me.

First off, I have little money, and a mental d/o diagnosis would affect my insurance premium. Financially, I am on my own.
Second, my productivity at work does not suffer (much). Even when my mind is hazy, I'm more than capable of doing everything I need to. It's just my personal life that suffers. Again, it really doesn't bother me much - but I hate seeing how I make others suffer. I feel like I should come with a warning label, so anyone I meet doesn't expect too much.
Third, I'm not too keen on the idea of being medicated. I am quite aware of the biological roots of the problem, but I feel as if I can manage it if I continue to learn about and anticipate it. (I realize that CBT cannot cure BP)

On the other hand, I feel hypocritical for rejecting treatment. A future doctor shouldn't be afraid of his own medicine, right? Besides, I sound like the manic/depressed people I've worked with in the past - too proud. If I ever felt out of control, I would no doubt seek treatment. The warning signs are engrained in my head now. I suppose this bothers me the most.</font>