Idiot, I sit here and think you are such a wonderful person. You have always been so kind and helpful to me when I feel I am in my worst moments. I wish there was something I could do here and now to help you. Please call someone, a helpline, or go to a hospital. Keep posting to us. Please hang in there and stay safe. Sometimes we are surrounded by stupid people and a stupid world. But there has got to be hope. Hang in there with us.