Anger is something I've been thinking about lately. I realized about a week ago I was angry at my mother (it sounds strange to say I had no idea before) and freaked out. I was incredibly agitated and shaking and unable to be very coherent. But then I just pushed everything back inside and I'm not really feeling it anymore.

I've only felt incredibly angry maybe three times in my life. But all I do when I feel that anger is direct it inwards, I don't even take it out on the person that made me angry.

Also, I was talking to my T about the only relationship I've ever really had dating wise, which lasted a year and a half, and how we never had a single fight, even when we broke up. And I realized how strange that sounded, but that's the way it happened. I know that wasn't "normal" and I don't know if I wasn't invested or what, but I can recognize that something is off about my responses.