You was honest to the counsellor. And thats because you want help and your honest. There is a difference between having hommosidal thoughts and carrying them out. Your trying to get help for your feelings. There was one time i had a strong feeling to seriously hurt a girl who had been treating me very badly. I was very concerned that i was feeling that way and as the urge was quite strong i called the police and told them that i was worried i was gonna hurt this person and i got my self put in hospital. Ive never had those kind of feelings before then or since.