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you've given me a lot to think about. thanks for that.

I would try to find someone more "long term" but the fact is that being at university and getting free therapy is easier for me than trying to go off-campus (I live in residence) and paying to see someone... since I don't have a job, and my parents can't ever find out about the therapy. They flipped the last time they heard I "occassionally" talked with a counsellor (my first).

I'm so very good at stuffing in emotions and past memories and hurts ... and look where that has gotten me. Absolutely nowhere, and in more pain. blah. I'll just never learn... (sighs)

Thanks for your thoughts