TheatreKid, I was thinking about these very kinds of things just this morning(!)
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Originally Posted by Skitz13
I know how you are feeling. This is a very lonely illness. The other night when I was having such a horrible night, I really needed somebody and what made me the saddest is that I had no one else to call. They're gone…
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Sooo hear you. This was a very big element. It's probably sad commentary on me, but it doesn't even occur to me to look to real life for this. BF is the closest to understanding (he's BPD), but I have to be very careful. The repercussions from (potentially) triggering him just aren't worth it for me. Even online, I get paranoid and clam up. Oh, my poor psych.
Anyway, I was lamenting a situation and it came to the same place. I have a VERY small world. I can count it on one hand. And most of them live far away. People often say it is with hypo/mania that they lose people. For me, it's depression. Aside from BF, there has only been one other person who ever even took notice when I'd fall off the earth. He's dead. (That one
really hurt. Someone who had real potential for enduring…)
It's not that I'm not a hoot to hang out with. In general, I am. A hoot, that is. Buuut, I can't relate to "normals'" lives, nor they to mine, so there ya have it. It doesn't get far. I've never been accused of shallowness or TMI or neediness though, that's for sure. But whatever got a foothold, over the years, has been decimated by depression and disappearance. And death. There was an interesting light… someone I eventually told (about BP) exclaimed, "I always KNEW you were INTENSE!" Well, there ya have it, mystery solved! Lol. Suspect it solves a mystery on this end too...
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Originally Posted by Alone & confused
Look guys, why should you feel the need to hide yourselves from the world?
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I had to read through to this about 3 times to clear my confusion. Ahhhh, not talking about depression.
Btw, I love your quote about givers, takers and limits. So true.