That can be discouraging but keep trying Mowtown, there are a lot of people out there that struggle right now so therapists are actually pretty busy. In the meantime you can do some research about CBT and DBT and think about which one you would like to try first. Often it can be the combination that makes a difference and gaining. I think it is great that you are doing the footwork towards your healing, that is what I like about you, you keep trying and really "want to" make gains. You have that part of you that is defiant that says, "oh yeah, well watch me because I am going to do it", that is the part you want to keep developing, that is the part that helped you thrive "in spite of". That is also how you can "honor" your PT that inspired you the way you should have been inspired long ago, he gave you permission, a new tool or app to move forward with and you can continue to develop that you know. Your brain is a kind of muscle too, you certainly "can" develop that part of you too, and you have been and have been making gains there too by finding the weak parts and slowly developing stronger ways to make yourself stronger there too. I have noticed you have been gaining a lot from when you first came to PC.

(((Hugs)))
OE