Echoes, what you're describing over the health insurance sounds similar to my reaction to my pain doctor's office refusing to refill my scrip for 5 days, at which point I'd have a gap in my meds, which could be dangerous due to withdrawal issues. i felt so helpless and was furious about being in that situation where someone had power over me and at their whim my health was being hurt. I went on and on about to the people around me. Of course you're still upset - there's been no resolution or recognition. It sounds similar to my situation where I at least want my mother to understand how much pain she caused be this January.

Sunrise, our thinking is eerily alike. I am not in your situation, but if I were I rather think my reaction would be similar. I don't think I could stay in the relationship, and I would be saddened by that, and perhaps a bit resigned, but I don't feel like I could get angry. I don't even want my mother to understand how much pain I am in to make her feel guilty about causing it. I want her to understand because maybe if she does she will stop doing the things that cause me such pain. Or at least I want her to see the consequences of her actions, because often I think she just ignores them by leaving the room while I fall apart in her wake.

My T suggested that I bring her to a session so that I can try to express this to my mother with a third party present. I think I want to do that, because I don't know of another way to talk to her, because I am terrified that if I say the wrong thing she'll just scream at me for hours for accusing her of being a failure as a parent. She can be very defensive. I'm torn between wanting to wait for such a session to be stronger (and I've only been seeing this T for around 6 weeks) and wanting to do it now because the longer the situation continues without things being said, the harder I feel it is to maintain the status quo.

You know what the scariest thing is? My mother is a trained psychologist, psy.d and everything.