i feel so tired and out of control.
it's like i have to hurt the outside or hurt the inside.
kill them or kill me, that's the choice
i feel like lashing out at things and people, running into the road
sometimes I get visions like cutting myself and my other hand holding the knife., are they hallucination or images i make up?
I am also dealing with eating disorder
i wan to never wake up so i dun hv to think about hurting people or food
i haven't been taking med. my dr thought i am such a good girl. my mu m found out yesterday i hid my night med by searching me. she said no one can help me. I know. i chose not to take them so she is right. i can never be helped. i should die. i asked her to kill me several times but she said she will end up in jail. :'( eveery night it gets worse. i cause it upon myself