I am notorious for obsessively emailing people when manic. The worst was when I told someone outright that I was obsessed with them. Horribly embarrassing! Then there was the time when I (when much younger) accused someone I cared about of being racist. It was a nonsensical accusation.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this, but more importantly, that you had to deal with such terrible abuse from your husband. I wish this guy would have been more supportive in the first place and then you wouldn't be in this position. It will get less awkward with time. The lady I told I was obsessed with, she is still my mentor and friend and she appreciated that I was very mentally ill when that occurred. I hope it is similar for you!