I'm sorry for all ur going through I know it really sux. If u have a phone when it gets real bad u can call the Sui hotline. I've never called so I dont know how it goes. Sui is always on my mind an I'm a bad role model since I don't tell T or Pdoc. I never allowed anyone to see my pain I just hid it all away.

It seems u and ur sister have a decent relationship, u need to go to ur sister when she's off work or whenever u can and tell her u need help as soon as possible. If she still ignores u and u r desperate enough go to an er and tell them what u want to do. They will keep u safe. I have no idea what the hospital situations r by u but mate it's be an eye opener for ur family to see ur not bluffing ur in serious pain and need serious help.