I understand how you are feeling and I am so sorry! I would definitely recommend taking your medicine so you can possibly start to feel better. I'm sorry about your mom, what a terrible thing for her to say to you!

Do you see these visions like you would see something physical, outside of your head? If so, these visions are hallucinations (which is less likely)? Do you see them in your head? If so, they are intrusive thoughts. These thoughts are very scary. I get them also when very manic or very depressed.

I'm sorry you have so many struggles. I hope it gets easier for you!