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but gives me will power beyond measure to walk right by cookies and chocolate and donuts without any kind of temptation.

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oryan:

does your life feel out of control? does saying no to food give you a sense of power &/or control? is controlling your food intake & exercise feulling these feelings?

smthngs to ponder, that may help you...............

i remember the very 1st time my anorexia began........................someone in my "family" hurt me greatly.............................i was incredibly hurt and soooooooooooooooooo furiously angry..................a bunch of us went out to eat @ swiss chalet (one of my all-time fave restaurants)..............................i was absolutely famished; however, i just REFUSED to eat anything...................................

i remember thinking, "you may have hurt me very very badly, but there's no way in hell that you can make me eat".....................................i was 9 or 10 yrs old.........................................................all about control.

my advice: seek out a therapist & support grps.