Oh, thank you I'm very happy that you read and replied me because I cannot talk to anyone else here. There is no counceling center. No, she can't love me unconditionally. I have to find a boyfriend to make her happy, and I know it's not fair. But it's not important to her. She went to the psychiatrist, and instead of trying to convince her that she cannot just say she'll commit a suicide because something isn't as she would like, he told her that he doesn't believe LGBT people exist, and that she should believe me again because it was probably my revenge to her.(?!) I really know that she isn't happy, and I understand her, we don't have enough money, she is always home, lonely. She has her ideas of life for me. She always asks why, why, why me, when all the girls have boyfriends. She says I'm the one to blame for I lied about something in my own life, for falling in love with a girl, that she is the one who suffers.... I don't want her suicide, or her to go mad, I wouldn't be able to live with that. So I'll commit it if I can't live this way, with everyday threats, she will go mad, she will kill herself, she will talk to the girl's parents, she will, she will... . It looks like my life is becoming a lie. Dad also doesn't understand that love. But when we finish conversation, he doesn't ask me about that, he never said he would kill himself. And she is a detective. It would be really horrible if people found out. They are conservative here, stiff and superficial. And I, being their only child, can't destroy them. Feeling lost. Thank you again for your support...