Actually I just recalled what are probably the two most intense questions that T has asked me.

There was one time in which I was in a very bad state, and I was driving. I was beyond angry, and when I get angry I tend to drive a bit erratically. Anyway, I was so mad I was driving fast, and literally was thinking about driving my car into a lightpole. (Very productive, I know). When I told my T about this, he asked me: why did you stop?

Another time I was saying something to the effect of how therapy was painful and difficult because of the attachment and so on, and he said: then why do you still come?

These questions hit me like no other. I didn't even know the answers to them right away. He kills me...