HI Pinksoil. I resonate with your post. I come away from sessions thinking "this time" I will retain the warmth, the memorys. But like yourself its gone in flicker of an eye lid at times.

But you know I just discovered something. I was just sitting out in my garden whist my twin 14yr old daughters are messing about in the water and I sat there just letting them chat to me, letting them be 14 and all the boy chatter and make-up chatter knowing it was important for them, for me to accept them completely in that moment, and that warmth I feel when T does this with me, hit me. Its like I retained her through giving it away. Does that make sense?