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Originally Posted by fabulousdivararity
Admittedly, I have several issues (Histrionic, Narcissistic, OCD and a little antisocial.) and all of them have caused me different problems. The worst this disorder has made me do is start cutting, attempt suicide twice, and use my knowledge of how to manipulate people to con a proposal out of my fiancé. We've all done some crazy things in our time, and this disorder certainly constitutes a lot of crazy. But we aren't alone now that we have this forum. Talking to people who get it really helps. Since this is all completely anonymous, if you have the burden of what you've done weighing on you, put it here and anonymously say what's the worst you've done.
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Last week I finally got diagnosed: HPD & MPD, depression and anorexia nervosa.
If I had to describe my life I'd say it's like a broken record. I keep making the same horrible mistakes, but to me it's never enough.
I attempted suicide by starving myself, thought about doing other bad things, manipulated the people I love the most, lied to them..
And well.. Every time I make new friends I think I'll be able to start anew. But at the same time I know I am just lying to myself, I know that I'll ruin everything in the end.
What I TRULY want is simply to be loved & fall in love. But my actions never match my words & it's frustrating..
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