There is no logical reason for my episodes ... Im up and down and middle ground at random ..I do not always hit depression after a manic trip.. I have gotten better at body surfing them as they hit... I still have very scarey episodes where I am literally 5 mins away from a trip to the ER and Inpatient.

One very important thing I have learned through Therapy is I no longer hyper focus on what mood I am in... I have regular mood shifts just like everyone else on the planet bipolar or not.