i feel my life is slipping away
feeling so crappy again today
family are here, just shadows to me
they dont understand i want to be free.
free as a bird up in the sky
free as the grass in a field of rye
up on a hilltop with nothing around
no one to get at me, not any sound.
in one way i'm venting and getting it out
in another i'm sinking with worry and doubt.
i know there are others much worse than me
i'm sorry, so selfish i hope you can see
why i'm writing and writing the things that i feel
to me it's my saviour in trying to heal.
thoughts in my head are driving me mad
i want to be happy instead of being sad.
there are others out there who are feeling the same
we have to remember we're not to blame.
all the frustration and sadness and pain.....
will go away for ever, we wont go insane.
keep talking, keep writing, whatever it takes
and get over these feelings of life's bad mistakes.

jin