Hey Sunrise,

I guess what I mean is when he suggested 2x per week, it felt like he cared and saw me and the pain I am in. Then, as we know, it changed the next week. We did talk about it and he said 'you don't think I care about you?'...and I said 'I don't think anybody does'...

I did ask about the unhealthy/healthy dependence and I'm not sure he finished that thought. I can't remember if he did anyway. I also said that I need to feel like my 'attachment' is okay and that I don't always think it is because of perceived hesitation on his part...he said it was okay but again I need to feel that it is...what will that take? Maybe a similar exchange like Pinksoil and her T just had...in her recent post...

Actually, I am feeling from him what I see in my dad and my husband...I'm wondering if I created this somehow...or expect to feel this so I look for it in every word, unspoken word, etc. I'm left wondering all the time by my dad and husband. Do they care? Do they love me? Accept me as I am?

I agree this needs to be resolved but I am growing tired. I feel like I try to cover this and sometimes come out with more questions than answers...again is it me or him or the process? I don't trust my feelings anymore on this subject.

But no he isn't being negative or anything like that. I'm just avoiding the topic with him right now and think if I reduce sessions then I'll get some of my control back of my emotions. Then maybe I won't feel so empty...