I find it a bit obnoxious I mean things could potentially be worse in life, but that doesn't change how I feel. I have gotten to the point of attempting suicide I don't think there is really much worse feelings than resorting to that because that is how horrible you feel well I guess worrying I'd succeed at it isn't a very pleasant feeling either. Honestly I am starting to care less and less about my life circumstances and don't know that it getting better or worse would have much effect one way or another, because my brain is already screwed up.