I am getting really concerned and very depressed about my life, I have no direction, and don't know what to do about it. I feel like I am in stuck in a situation and don't know how to get out and there are many areas of my life that concern me greatly. One of my biggest concerns is, what do I want to do in life in terms of a career or college, or what are some better paying jobs out there that don't require a college education? This area has been a huge question for me. I'm 24 now, and I don't feel any different than when I was 18 years old when I just graduated high school when it comes to this situation, I've just been clueless about what career I want to pursue. Everytime I come across ideas for a career or read about it, I don't really feel anything towards it....like I don't feel like "Yeah, now THAT'S exactly what I want to do!" or "Yeah, that's the right career for me!" I just feel either alot of uncertainty, or alot of disinterest, or feeling like some things might be too hard or I might not be able to do it or be interested in doing it. I never actually majored in anything in college, I only went to a community college just to take a few general courses. I did go to a vocational school for a Computer Repair program and got a certificate for that when I graduated. This particular school I went to ensured you that you will get job placement for whatever trade you took, well that didn't happen, because the only job recommendations I got after I graduated that program was more warehouse, call center, or retail store type of jobs, and unfortunately, I don't even remember anything about repairing a computer or all the technical things about computers so I feel as if those certifications won't do me any good anyway.


I feel this very deep empty feeling and just dead inside, like my life has no meaning or no importance or value, and that I really don't have anything to look forward to in life, or as if I have no purpose in life. Sometimes I wonder why am I even here. I never look forward to the next day because I know all it's going to be is me going to work again at a warehouse just scanning boxes and throwing boxes on conveyer belts all day. I feel like for my age, I am very behind in multiple areas, especially compared to a lot of other people my same age or other friends. I still live with my parents, and I have never moved out or had my own apartment or lived with roommates. I feel terrible about that. I'm hoping to move out later this year with one other friend, so hopefully that'll work. My dating life is non-existent...I haven't had a girlfriend in years, and that's really starting to bother me really bad. I feel like those 2 things alone are greatly wearing down on how I feel about myself, how I view myself as a person and my self esteem, and making me feel like I am a total failure. The whole relationship/dating history of my life is very small compared to a lot of people my age, I've barely dated, and when I have, it hasn't lasted longer than 2-3 months, meanwhile there are a lot of guys my age who have had several long-term relationships or have had many hook ups or many options when it comes to girls. There are some days that I feel really lonely and just wish I had a girl to spend time with. I understand that a girlfriend is not the answer to your problems or your depression but alot of times I wish I had that type of connection or spark with a girl. This really brings me down and makes me wonder if something's wrong with me.


There are some days where I seriously wish I was dead so I don't have to keep thinking about or worrying about the things I think or worry about, or so that I don't have to feel like every day has no point or that every day doesn't move on to something better, my mind is never really at peace. Even though I feel all these things, I don't have the guts to go through with killing myself. I don't want to risk killing myself before things get better if things were to, as well as there are certain things that I haven't gotten to do yet that I would like to accomplish. I don't want to keep going through life feeling empty or like a failure or as if I have no purpose, feeling like a lot of people are above my level, or never looking forward to the next day. I wish I had a job/career that I could enjoy doing, look forward to doing and pays a lot, but I can't think of what that is. I'm scared about my life and where my life is heading, it scares me thinking about my future, I don't want things to continue like this but I don't know what to do or where to start.