This is what I was afraid was going to happen. My depression manifests as tearfulness and aggression. Like, I scare people when I'm down I'm so aggressive. When my primary care put me on the Geodon last week, she told me to stop the Celexa I was taking. I was fine til today, when I realized the teary feeling was back. That means that horribly losing my temper at someone is not far behind, a day or two at most. Thoughts of suicide will show up in another week or so. But I still have the up energy and insomnia and overspending of the hypomania, though the paranoia that helped get me diagnosed is mostly gone. Guess this is what a mixed episode feels like. It's not bad yet, but it WILL get there. If there's one end of this illness I know well, it's the depression and how I experience it.

She told me to call her if I started feeling like this, as I expressed my concern about dropping the AD before seeing the psych when we talked. I know she counseled me to stop it because of the potential drug interactions, but I'd rather risk that than feel like this. Looks like I get to call in the morning.