Hi,
I appreciate your responses.
I wasn't trying to suggest in anyway that bipolar sufferers can control their symptoms-if anything I'd see it the other way around, as in, they can't. Which is why my being the ONLY one, besides her husbands but much later in her life, who saw this side of her. It felt very personaly directed at me.
I don't think I ever should have brought this up on here. I have no right to come into this area and start bad mouthing my sister because I'm angry at her for being bi-polar because I'm the only one who seems to see the rages in our family, except her husbands. I'm just very confused with this. Do I have the excuse to HATE her like I do or do I now have to learn to really try to forgive/excuse her because I'm assuming, she acted this way towards me because she was/is suffering from bi-polar. (I'm not ready to forgive her. I hate her. She was so damn mean to me and it was totally uncalled for.) But what Seraph and Suzy wrote makes sense about lashing out on certain people and not others.
But on the other hand-isn't there some control in her not lashing out on just anybody? I mean, I have a serious attitude problem and it comes out in all areas of my life, home, family, strangers, work, here on PC, everywhere. I really have no control over it but I'm trying. If I'm having this much trouble control my attitude regardless of where and who, wouldn't it be harder and more evident with something as I see as being more serious as bi-polar disorder?
Cause maybe as DarkEyes suggested, maybe she's not suffering from bi-polar disorder-I don't know, I'm sure she was diagnosed by a doctor, she's on meds for it. But she could have been misdiagnosed. I can't say. I don't know very much about bi-polar to even use it as a catch all or to be stereo typical about it. Really. I just knew about the rages/anger because of what I read on here.
I'm now confused as to what I'm asking.
I'm sorry. I have to deal with this in another way. I don't want to hurt any of you and jab at what your going through. I really, truely don't and I'm sorry if you felt like I did so maliciously. I didn't mean to.
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