For me it feels like a disorganised behaviour thing. When I am both up and down, I can't get on top of things - washing the car, showering, shaving, brushing my teeth and hair, cleaning my room, packing my lunch, basically lots of little hygiene/self care things. When I'm depressed, I just can't be bothered at all. When I'm manic, I cannot settle myself for long enough to do any of this ****. I just flit around making more mess, changing my clothes constantly etc. I suspect my mood doesn't often go to true normal so I'm always a bit depressed or a bit 'up' and showering is one of the things I just can't get my **** together enough to do. It seems like my mind is always a bit too blah or a bit too frazzled to get on with normal studf