mlpHolmes yes its fair enough see the pros I find so hard I dont think I deserve things (ie) treatment, sometimes I sit by my window late at night when its peaceful and just think about things like what do I want out of life what I want to do with my life. And every time its the same things I think of, that I will never amount to anything that I'm not good enough for no one.

At the moment all I can think about is negitive things I dont think I deserve to live I dont think I deserve anything, I think that I'm a lost cause.

So as far as my pros list I dont have nothing on that list the cons list I can think of loads, Anyway maybe I shouldnt write this I dont think I deserve anyones support I'm just not at a good place at the moment well feels like my whole life.