I wanted to delete the post above, but too much time has passed. I only wanted it to be supportive and comforting, but it might miss the mark. illusory, you need people to listen and that's what we are here for. I hope you don't take my post above the wrong way. I don't mean to belittle what you are feeling. I too, have been there, as most people will say they have, too. We understand.