Hi Illegal, I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. For some people it can be a matter of preserving, keeping on pushing, keeping on trying, doing all they can do, and keeping on hanging in there until they slowly start breaking through but sometimes that's just not enough, hey??
So you need something more/something different?? Something outside of what you're doing now. Because as far as I'm concerned it's absolutely not a fault with you, with you not responding to x, y, z, it's not that you just aren't "up to it"/don't have the strength to.........it's as much that you haven't had the right help for you yet.
So something different............can you let a T in on any (more of?) what's going on for you, so they can offer you some of the support you need?? Or if you have a T and they're really not helping could you look into other one's that could be out there??? Maybe push your pdoc a little more regarding medication or if there are any out patient programs you could try??? Any different helplines that might be useful???
Something to think about??? And maybe a way further forward???
But while we've got you here do you want to do a bit more talking for now???
Is there anything gone on that's triggering these feelings or things that are worsening or not helping them??
Or if you just want to "share the load" a little and let some of it out??
Whatever you want to talk about.......We're/I'm here for you, we/I care.

Alison