Hi livinglife, sorry you're feeling this way again. Is there anything that may have triggered it, or any changes to your "day-to-day" routine that might help??? Maybe something to think about???
Although you're right trying to stay positive can be helpful sometimes/for some people too. So admire your fight/determination!!!
And on the note of being positive..........have you got lists of things, or things that help you try to be positive??
I'm thinking about things you've done; things/people in your life; things you're planning or could plan to do; or even quotes, sayings, webpages, youtube videos, music or any personal possessions you may have which carry meaning for you??? Perhaps worth doing a bit of an inventory of those things and adding to them if you need to???
But if you want to talk some more............

Alison