This is interesting. I have never had that fantasy. I thought about it after reading this thread, but decided that it would be 'wasting' time to take a nap in T's room. I have actually had a fantasy in which we engage in a deep discussion about poets, novelists, existentialism, and psychoanalysis. Like a real 50/50 discussion, without the focus on me. There is usually coffee involved, lol.

Actually, last Tuesday when I went to see T and I had that crazy somatic reaction and felt horrible, I just leaned back in the chair and kept my eyes closed a lot of the time. Even when he asked a question, I answered it with my eyes closed.