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Originally Posted by StbGuy
You see, that's the problem, I realized it years later. People just didn't like me. Actions speak louder than words. I really am not saying this to boast or anything, but I was pretty smart at university, and I was also the guy that used to score high on the tests and answer the professor's in-class questions. It was so natural for me, but it makes you look like a smart-***, and nobody likes a smart-***. I began to realize it back then already and did an "experiment". I kept quiet, but, all that happened is nobody then answered and the professor used to get angry. In my mind I thought, dammit, I should rather have answered because I did know it. I can't help I'm like this. It's a trait of my condition. Call it narcissistic or whatever, but I hate to be put in the same "box" with other people if it really doesn't apply to me. Why should I fail just to fit in with all others that failed, when I clearly had the knowledge to succeed? I think this is what has happened. She, along with my other classmates slowly began resenting me more and more each day.
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It isn't narcissistic unless you're trying to "lord it" over others with your intelligence -- snubbing them for being less smart, deliberately trying to dumbfound them with dazzling feats of smartness, etc. As long as you're conducting yourself with decency and manners, their envy of intelligence is their problem (and hers), not yours.
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Originally Posted by StbGuy
I guess I could do that, although I think all women to some degree are attracted to cocky-funny, I think she has a reasonable penchant for it too, otherwise she would never have dated that other guy in our class, who defines the term cocky-funny in my opinion.
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Not all of them -- my not-yet-wife, while young, appreciated "funny," but if I'd been cocky my *** would still bear the print of her screen door.
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Originally Posted by StbGuy
I doubt she would ever see it as I'm sure she won't use the PsychCentral site ever in her life  But, on a personal note, do you think that was cool? |
Quite cool indeed! Now if only I could find a way to fill my outer electron shell -- and I don't mean by shock treatment
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Originally Posted by StbGuy
I think they do small-scale CBT, but I see straight through that  . |
Me too -- don't get me started.
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Originally Posted by StbGuy
... I've been looking at Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD). Maybe I'm just a nasty, self-centred person after all that has some sort of feeling of "entitlement" that I don't deserve to be alone.
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Wrong -- see quote #1 and reply above. And self-diagnosis is a grave mistake. Oddly enough, I too was worried about NPD and started a thread in that forum, but then took the test cited in one reply and scored
1 out of 40.
