I have kind of had this fear of being gay for the past week. I'm straight. I've only been with men. I'm attracted to men. I've never been physically attracted to a woman. Like, I've kissed, cuddle, and been touched my girls and I don't feel anything, so I know I'm straight.

But accompanying an array of fearful thoughts, I've been questioning my sexuality.

I have NOTHING against gay people. I frikkin' love gay people! But I am straight, and I KNOW I'm straight, yet thoughts won't leave me alone.

So now I'm having dreams...

I dreamt that this guy that I used to have a crush on had a vagina.

I dreamt that this girl who has a crush on me was naked.

I dreamt that I engaged in oral sex with this female character in a book I'm reading.

I dreamt about sex with my own damn sister which led me straight into a suicidal-thought-ridden breakdown.

It's so annoying. I don't know how to make these dumb dreams go away. They leave me feeling nauseous all day. I KNOW they're just dreams, but they just make me sick.