Hello, Emma8432. You are not okay. You know you are not okay. The problem is getting help now if possible. Can you see if your general practitioner can get you a referral?

Going to the Emergency Room is an option.

Do your parents know what you are dealing with? Will they help you get the treatment you need?

Maybe NAMI might be able to help you? NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness | State & Local NAMIs

Please keep on posting so we know how you doing.

I wish you well.