Right now I'm different than I was this morning. I don't know what yesterday was like. I remember smiling and being happy and feeling things but I feel really disconnected. It's more like remembering a dream than remembering real-life events. It seems like I switch back and forth, when I'm emotionless and disconnected, I can't remember what I did when I felt the other way except for bits and pieces. I don't know if it's the same way when I have the other personality.
It's really really hard to explain. I think people around me think I just switch from really good moods to really bad moods, but it's more than that. When I'm in this mood (the empty mood) I can't remember what I'm like in the other mood. It's weird and I don't know how to explain it. It's like somebody hit a reset button in my head