In response; I am not at risk right now to attempt suicide and they know that. I agreed to hosptial; not to be dragged away from all my suports here. They were not abusive at this other facility but it was like pulling teeth to get someone to talk to me; staff. They were snappy and rude. I had to beg someone to talk to me last time I was there and they gave me all of a few mins to speak. It was not like they were so busy, most the time they sat at the desk and talked about their personal lives. It was ridiculous and did not help a bit. I have not attempted suicide in well over a year. I have been talking to my t about everything and she agreed that I was okay to be in the hospital in my city. It is not a locked unit. She told me that my doc was in full agreement to this as I am asking for help; I showed up didnt I. I have my kids right now, I would not do something that would destroy them forever. I would not allow them to find me dead. yes, I need help and am willing to get it. We had agreed that they would arrange it for when I have to take my kids back to dads. Which is now the 22nd. I said that if I could only get in a little sooner I would speak with the kids father. Anyway, my feeling is that this is unfair. I am wanting help and I contracted with my t to not go ahead with any suicidal ideation. Yes I am struggling but if I was in that mind set; I would get help immediately. I would never do such a thing to my kids.

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