Talking to others can be very difficult when in really depressive and anxious state. Finding someone I can trust, who's caring, compassionate, not critical of me, tries to be sensitive/understanding of how I feel is important. Its hard talking to people about mental health issues and getting negative unhelpful responses back. Some people make you feel worse including professionals.
I think its when I'm in really depressive episode that I get intense dark suicidal thoughts and feelings. Most suicidal behaviour and attempts is related to not the the person, but their illness. Its a shame people blame person, saying they are selfish etc.. But they don't get the suffering, and pain and overwhelming feelings thay experience that can reach point of being too unbearable to carry on.