This past year had been very hard on me and on my family. I've been with my husband for 9 years and had an emotional affair beginning last June. My husband found out, which was horrible for both of us--but I had a lot of guilt because I hurt him. We did go to therapy--but I couldn't get past a lot of things in our relationship. I chose to separate from my husband. He moved out 3 days after Christmas. My 16 year old son went with him.

That's the cliff notes version.

Bottom line is I have guilt every day because of what I've done to m my family. I do not want to reconcile with my husband, but I know my choices had a serious impact on my son and my relationship with him. I feel like something has died inside of me. I feel like I have no purpose. I don't feel like a mother anymore.

I'm in therapy and medicated. I am also going to get my son into therapy. I have lived with depression my entire life. But these last few months have been very difficult. It's hard to even read what I just wrote...When I think about how much I hurt my child, I can't even express with words how I feel.