This is quite strange and I feel like it is perhaps not common. So, given that I came here for very similar reasons to you, I am somewhat surprised to see my thoughts already in writing. I, too, am finding a lack of emotional feeling. However, it is to the opposite emotions. I feel fine, really.

I just lost someone to suicide. I cry my heart out every so often - it was less than a month ago. Yet in my head there is a separation. It is as if there are two copies of me; one feels the pain and controls physical responses (crying, inability to stand temporarily, shaking, difficulty swallowing that lump in my throat), whilst the other has my thoughts.

I sit there, crying, yet thinking straight. Little triggers pull me down and I become a mess, then I hear my thoughts, 'Ah, here we go again. Better pause the video until I can see the screen again,' and the thoughts are so clear. Like any other thought I've ever had.

This separation is what brought me to this site. I realised that something wasn't quite right. Reading over the previous responses, I can't help but be drawn to the one about disassociation.

Maybe my mind is trying to protect itself by creating this alternate, emotionless void to slip into while my physical response takes the hit. Maybe yours is too, although using a slightly different technique. If you'd like to talk about it, let me know. I'm more than happy to have a chat.