I'm so sorry you're hurting Grr. If you tell your T you do not feel safe being by yourself & speak from your heart, you need a stay in the hospital at this time. S/he will make arrangements. Asking for what you want & need Grrr is a real positive step!! Good Luck & keep in touch!!! We care about you!!! I'll be thinking about you. ps. Please
don't keep calling yourself stupid - you are not. Thks. xoxoxoxoxoxo