The original question on this thread was "How do you describe your "normal?"

For me, my normal would be as I described. I'm in no way suggesting that my normal fits for others. I have traveled extensively and am well aware of the vast difference between what is considered normal in another land - or another state in the U.S. - and what is the "norm" here in northern California. The standard of living here is extremely high. I didn't create it, so please: Do not blame me for it. If I could I would live in another country - quite gladly, but I can't do that for obvious reasons. In my life I would like to be on a socio-economic level with my friends, the people I grew up with and remain friends with. I hate being invited out for dinner with friends and not being able to attend because I literally cannot afford to...sitting home, lonely and isolated, watching a TV show and pretending I don't really mind not being out having a good time and connecting socially.

For me, I believe mental illness has created an obstacle to what I might have accomplished had I not been MI - especially depression, which is so debilitating. And really, it is not only about money. It's about self-accomplishment. It's about shame.

I believe I have done incredibly well considering that I am quite bipolar. I have raised wonderful children and I have traveled a lot, and will travel in the future when the money is (hopefully) there. Nevertheless, I wish I had the money this week-end for gas so I could drive to the coast and hike among the redwoods instead of sitting in my sweltering-hot house in 105 degree temperatures - and having to borrow $7 from my daughter for food money.