I don't mean I don't know how to do things. -I do. and I do as I am told. whatever people ask me to. I don't care.
I'm tired.

every time I think I've finished all urgent business something new comes up.
life is an unlimited number of horrible tasks that become more and more annoying. and I'm exhausted. it's never going to stop. and it's getting more and more horrible as I realize it's not ever going to stop.
I just want this to end.

my last bit of will is gone.
I'm just a dead piece of meat moved by others.