Good post, Venus, thank you. The thing is I do like - even love - my friends. Most of them were people I quite literally grew up with from babyhood. I am closer in many ways with some of my girlfriends than I am with my own blood sisters. And those friends are so much more resilient than I am. They cope with life more effectively and accomplish things with less effort than it takes for me to accomplish something. Oh, they have their problems for sure...but their problems seem to be more "normal" problems. Their houses are always immaculate, while my house is always a mess. And I don't understand that, except that while I do work hard I am also very easily exhausted. The exhaustion comes from stress, depression, and medications.