I remember what he looks like. That's not too much of a problem, as I'm a very visual person. But I can't internalize the positive feelings that I have when I'm with him to transfer out of therapy. I mean, I can't even lay on the couch because he'll be behind me. I need to see him right in front of me, to know that he's there. Sometimes I feel like there is too much space between us; I would probably sit in his freaking lap if I could. Maybe then I could cry. If we could close up the space.

too
f***ing
attached

I do the same thing you do Sunny. Photos on the net. Played a saved message today that he left me last week. Called his # and listened to his voicemail.

I can't wait until Tuesday.