Hello x123, welcome to Psych Central.

Could you be honest and write your feelings down and then share it with him? Then that way, there is a safe distance with writing it down. You could start it off by saying that you don't drink anymore and that have changed your life round since the last meeting. If he is a good friend he will understand and probably give you explanations for each of your fears.

I do know that with psychosis, our fears can get magnified, would he really have drugged you on that visit? Would a real friend do that? I will say that there are some people that can unintentionally trigger the fears and exacerbate symptoms. You may feel you are stronger now and decide to meet. It's up to you and how safe you feel.