pinksoil, interestingly, as I have become more secure in my attachment to T and better able to internalize him, I don't have to look at his photos or replay his messages like I used to. That intense need has faded. Now I am happy to just feel the warmth of his presence and memory as I fall asleep, or sometimes hear him in my head as I confront each day's challenges. It's very cool. I hope you will become more and more secure as time passes. Even though my attachment feels "different" than the more urgent mode of earlier in therapy, I don't feel "less" attached than then. Just different. Does your T have any ideas for helping you internalize him? (or would he want this?)

Hang in there until Tuesday. ((((hugs))))