When I was 8-12, my mother used to make allot of comments about me being perverted for the way I sat, the way I slept, it could be anything. It was so nerve racking and I thought she hated me. My counselor said it sometimes was characteristic of incestous families that mothers viewed their daughters that way. It is definately the thing that hurt the most. It began to be very depressed, stopped talking much, and my self esteem left. Wierd thing is that my mom loved me. She was even worried about my self esteem, but it didnt stop her from seeing something bad in me. I think I battle with that thing that she saw in me. I still feel like an icky child. I wish I knew of an easy way to make it go away.
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