Even famous people don't disclose due to stigma though. My experience has been generally good with disclosing. I haven't been cast in much lately but I'm hoping it's just a dry patch and not some reputation catching up to me. The last few directors and stage managers I've worked with have appreciated my candor and have said I AM reliable, especially since I tell them what's up, but you never know when the tide will turn in showbiz. And most of us are university students - I don't know if their worldview would be very different from professionals.

I just let one of my castmates know. I hope it's ok, we're going to talk about it tomorrow. I always feel bad telling people because I had a teacher once who said "do you ever think about how you're making your friends feel?"

But I'm doing a good thing. I need support to get through this.

Tonight is excruciating. I can't sit for a long period of time, I have no concentration, I feel like my body is just going to fly into a million pieces. I WANT to sleep tonight but I doubt I will.