Well, I'm finally breaking down my resistance to call my Pdoc. I've been feeling so good the last time I saw him and also for the last several weeks since.
I wasn't supposed to see him again until September , since I have been so stable and happy.
The lack of sleep this week and extreme intimacy drama this week is the final straw. I am going to get some pro-help.
I need to sleep better, and melatonin/GABA isn't cutting it.

Time to face the music. Mania is accelerating. Thanks all!