I mean on the surface yeah I am trying to eat healthier, but more just to attempt ot lessen my digestive discomfort/lack of appetite and constantly being borderline underweight or moderately underweight issues so I don't feel hungry all the time...not because I am really thinking about 'this will help me live a more full-filling life'

hmmm - maybe you ought to think more on 'this will help you live a more fulfilling life'. - have you gone to a nutritionist to find out/make sure that you might not be ailing dietarily (sp - if that's a word) in some way? - maybe you have a thyroid situation that you is making you feel like crap - and therefore your thoughts are depressed also? diet is sort of important in making you feel ok - if you're anemic and always rundown your whole life can feel like there is a veil over your body and thoughts - all things turn grey. please check out your physical health and hopefully your mental heath will become brighter.